I want us to talk about feeling lost in the wait or in the wilderness.
There was a time when you knew, without a shadow of a doubt, that in spite of your present wilderness, victory was coming. There was an end goal or destination in mind. But then, you waited for what feels like long enough and now you’re asking questions, you’re doubting the promise, you’ve started feeling alone, you feel abandoned and as if nothing is ever going to change for you, you even start doubting that you deserve good things and a good life and that God wants you to live a good, whole, fulfilling and complete life.
But the truth is, none of this is true, you are just in transition. That’s why everything feels so uncertain and unfamiliar. You are on your way, you are in what we call the “in between”.
What we often don’t know is that there is power there because you know you’re still moving. A stagnant thing cannot be in transit. It simply can’t be. In order for you to be in transit, you need to be moving. There is more encouragement in that truth and that is the fact that it also means it’s not yet over.
Now I know that journey in transit is a painful one and that’s when you begin to feel lost. You don’t know whether you’re coming or going. Everything looks the same, what’s right looks wrong and what is wrong looks right. Praying and being in the Word becomes harder, it feels like “why bother?”, you have so many questions but little to no answers.
James 3:2 tells us that we all stumble in many ways. Stumbling can look different for different people in different seasons. The bottom line is, God anticipated the stumble and provided for it. That means that you haven’t failed by stumbling. You haven’t failed anything, in any way, because it is not the stumbling that matters but the getting up and staying up. It’s our response to the stumble that matters.
Are you feeling like your blessing/answers to your prayers got lost in transit? Or do you feel like you yourself are what’s lost in transit with no prospect of being found? It’s part of the process. The process of purpose isn’t clear cut and black and white. It can wear you out. But if you endure it yields much fruit.
Be assured that the testing of your faith [through experience] produces endurance [leading to spiritual maturity, and inner peace]. And let endurance have its perfect result and do a thorough work, so that you may be perfect and completely developed [in your faith], lacking in nothing.James 1:3-4